i need a doctor

im in chronic situation,where im suppose to be,is missing in my life,is not despair but is just confuse where should it be start and when should it start today or tommorrow..

"desire" from the bottom of your heart and brain adrenalin your life to achieve something that you really wanted to have and achieve..

all i wanted to have space that meet my quality time and place to think where i wanna be,where my life should be gone to......all i wanted to be the dream that i always wanted..but currently start from the bottom,without the base we cant go to the top.....

all i ever need is simple friend....nothing much just be friendly as you be in you not to much emotional,drastic,official understanding person but is not understanding at all....

it was that day that made me think twice,whether it was me ,or it was somebody else...im lil bit pain because family is my important ,im making good decision,but is not as i wanted,is the world people decide not just you....

9W2PDD....73'DE....

viva la konvo rindu.....same korang......(edited for wan)....;p

aku rindu kt korang hahah....x kire aku ke mana dan korang ker mana....ellie bg tau aku joe kater kwn ngan bdak2 lain dr yg lain....tp mmg betul kater joe....mmg best ntah naper....aku pon rase cam joe....haha....tp btul....aku sedar sesuatu kekwn hometown aku semua cam sunyi jer..kecuali myhood lar...hehe yg tuh kire lain.....ttp mmg btul...kenapa kiter nk balas membalas...n kenapa nk aku jer kene update utk korang....tp korang njoy sesama korang aper kes.....urm x per ar....kekdg aku sedey gaks....n ade skit terguris di hati.....tp aper kater wan n joe "ati kering suday"....jgn pkir2 mende yg menyusahkan diri sendri hehe..btul gaks...ati kering suday hehe.....tp sejak2 aku kwn ngan bdak nih...aku rase seronok even dorang bahan aku,x kisah pon ade yg bwat mende pelik2 dr luar jangkaan....walaupun dorang duk berlainan teritory tp..apapun main port di oldtown n bro bistro di KJ tempat bertemu semula rakan2 aku rase mmg ade memori kenangan manis ....haha....aku rase kekwn aku bkn di hometown aku lagi...maybe berada di luar hometown..aku haha...KECUALI myhood boyz aku....korang mmg best....RINDU SAMA KORANG...SELAMA-LAMANYA....

(mmg poyo nk smart kt PICC)

wahai2 kekwn aku di hometown kecuali "myhood boyz" lihat lar pic2 aku....betapa appy nyer aku...walaupun korang plannin nk ajak kuar sama main futsal sama2..at the end....korang g tanpa aku kan....aku phm hahah...saper lar aku nih....sbb aku kekwn ngan "hood boyz" aku kan???.... tuh jer korang tau...tp korang tgk ar pic2 aku haha....hidup nih kalo berkwn..biar byk tp nk jumpe nk update kekdg x ingat.... x per ar....aku phm..tp aku yg kene ingat korang apadaa.....at the end aku gaks korang luper...kalo arap kwn balas membalas a.k.a feedback sorry ar.....aku bkn aper.....sekadar tanya khabar ker....ala ajak jer ar aku lepak...kol lar aku...aku mmg duk umah jer pon..maner ade out....tp memandang korang bz...aku bleh ckp aper kan...bz kan....hahah......okie lar sudah2 lar bwat sakit ati aku jer.....73

(look at it...it so fun hahah..)




(miss u guyz...)

viva la konvo....

inilah dikata kan para graduan...dh graduate heheh....tetapi masih x puas utk memliki menikmati ilmu yg lebih baik a.k.a mls nk keje ar...haha...mmg penat dr hari khamis(20/11/08)...amik jubah pas tuh trus g njoy ngan bdk2....g OU plak tuh...teman kan joe g bli suar..die...mmg best..g mkn pas tuh g layan daytona...hhe..mmg puas ar..pas tuh balik lar ke KJ...lepak lagi...tuh...nk balikdlm pkul 7pm tp jem plak kt ldp aper lagi samb. lepak kt giant smpi mlm...then g maju mkn mlm pas tuh baru balik......ari jumaat kene bgn pagi plak mmg awal giler2....pas tuh g PICC rehersal bwat penat aku jer pkai smart angin tul aku dh lar x selesa....pakaian ala BJ nih adeh....setelah ptg menjelam rehersal abis....aper lagi lunch kt alamanda hahah.....mmg lapar thp max....pas tuh balik ngan sedey skit sbb...ade lar tp tanx to elli n wan....aku dh okie skit ar....mase time nk g dinner...x per lar...kekdg aper yg kiter nk selalu nyer mmg x dpt.....n mlm dinner tuh bkn shafik sebenar....die dh jadi "ati kering" sorry lar..if aku rosak kn dinner tuh haha...tp aper bleh bwat....aku dh lapar plus angin n sedey...jadi setan jap......mmg aku truk dlm dinner...almost nk kene out hehehe....tp aper bleh bwat.....mmg setan....then aku balik lar ngan ellie n wan....pas antar dorang.....aku balik lar.....tp agaks sad lar.....mls nk citer sbb aper....tp.......arh..mls nk citer ar aku dh ati kering sudah2 ar..mende dh lepas...then next day sabtu graduate lar aku hahah.....pagi2 aku dh out....mklum lar nk cepat rebut tempat rupernyer...protocol cam bodoh jer...nasib baik lar bapak aku mmg ganaz..hehe.....abis graduate semua cam org giler....hehe..biasa lar.....dh syok kan....amik pic sana sini..baling topi tuh.....haha...smpi ade lar org giler tuh...bwat anoucment...heheh...anak saper lah tuh hehe...

bongok tul hehe...anyway mmg best....skang dh lepas konvo...rase cam sedey plak...mula lar dh nk bwat jln lain....aku pon dh g Uni lain...adakah aku masih rapat...ngan die n kwn2 aku yg lain....n bleh ker aku lepas masuk MMU nih heheh.......so korang sikit jer lar aku letak pic...yg lain view kt dlm fs or myspace....http://www.myspace.com/b987

my callsign sticker.....

dis my callsign sticker nk tampal kt kete pon rase cam x berbaloi mahal...RM8 dowh....aku bwat 2 keping...so total RM16...x tau lar kt area kt klg or shah alam murah...aku bwat kt JB....cam mahal jer...heheh....tgk ar..cmner nih mmg sajer jer aku try2.....

adakah..........aku btul2 minat amateur radio ini...??

mase aku form 4.....aku mmg terpikir pasal walkie talkie sebab aku tgk citer smokey and the bandits tuh....tp die guna CB(calling band) maknyer maner2 org bleh pakai CB nih...tp di US....CB nih mmg byk org pakai...sebab senang kot.....tp di malaysia cam susah jer...

x byk org pakai....hasrat aku nk berckp ngan pemandu lori best woo...!! aku pon x tau naper...

hehehe......mayhbhe aku kanak2 lagi kot....tp umo ku dh ke 21...so aku dh pandai berdikari...aku mula menceburi n....1st time aku minat amateur nih aku jumpe kelab MARES kt web tuh pon pakcik aku introduce.....aper lagi aku beli handy aku pertama nih ha terpampan Icom IC-V8@ lalat ijau...haha...dh dpt callsign...9W2PDD....aku pon kurang nk on air...tuh yg aku terpikir btul ker aku minat radio amateur or sekadar nk penuh kan impian kanak aku tuh hehe...tp biler aku dh dgr org amateur yg experience...perh mcm2...lar....dr HF ker VHF till UHF.....gempak....bleh TX ker luar negara...tp gadget stakat handy n mobile rig x cukup...

nih lah ICOM IC-2200.....dah pasang tp jarang gune sbb aku jarang out duk umah jer...aku nk bawa buat base mls sebab...kotak itam x beli lagi hehe...aper tah aku pikir nih....btul ker x...haha.....tp insyallah mimpi kanak aku dh jd kenyataan....tp amateu radio okie gaks layan..kwn geng amateur mmg best gaks.....friendly sebab amateur radio related communication via freq radio...n mmg dorang rajin layan....even nk eyeball sanggup jauh2....n semangat kwn nk tlg pon ader.....tp aku blum rase sebab...aku x mendalami....

x luper gaks aku minat radio amateur sebab aku ske g jln2 yg jauh2...so kalo aper2 hal bleh TX ngan saper...tp...mesti kene tau freq n tone die also simplex die haha....n antenna kene adjust gaks....kekdg biler related ngan berjalan n amateur radio...kiter jumpe kwn...yg semangat kwn tp amateur ngan amateur jer yg paham.....so smpi sini jer ar citer aku.....

73....

handy aku yg 1st....mmg basic....

cinta aku pertama....n adik die...hahah......agaks basic tp adik die tuh v85...tuh mm gempak...tp pas nih aku nk try yeasu ft-60r...cam 9W2PGN pakai smart dowh....hahaha